Social Anxiety

It has been an awful span of weeks.

Last February, I had my MRI. Two weeks ago, I had a dentist’s appointment. Last week, I had a doctor’s appointment and a dental appointment and Prime was sick the entire week. When you get right down to it, I haven’t had any real down time. Add to that the fact that I caught what Prime was carrying and it’s been the one third of a month from hell.

Then, there’s the news. Namely, what happened in Christchurch.

Hearing about the facts of this, the reality of what this man did–no, I will not name him because I want that pile of feces to be forgotten–has been heartbreaking. The reality of this is awful.

Then there’s the social media component.

I’ve seen people on Twitter, rushing to defend a YouTuber who was referenced before the mass shooting; it wasn’t that guy’s fault, you see, even though he’s used racial slurs and has slipped Nazi imagery in some of his videos! He’s a victim, too!

After shooting a couple of “Are you effing serious?!” messages at the two worst offenders (one was a YouTuber whom was known for his Pokemon videos), I immediately jumped off Twitter.

I don’t know if I’ll be going back. At least, I’m not sure I’ll be going back any time soon. Same with Facebook, who’s busy straining itself trying to pat itself between the shoulder blades, since they removed ever so many uploads of the livestream of the shooter’s video. Shouldn’t they be congratulated for that? They did ever so much work, after all!

Considering how quickly Facebook scrubs any videos of Elizabeth Warren saying that the social media giant is too big and needs to be broken up, I’m not impressed. But then again, Facebook has yet to impress me with much of anything. That’s why I made sure to have Prime hide the app on my phone so I wouldn’t use it. Currently, I’m wondering if it wouldn’t be a good idea to delete the app from my tablet and stick with the browser version when necessary. I barely use it as it is, for obvious reasons.

I am getting burned–and burned out–from social media. And I want to dial it back.

That very day, I joined Mastodon social. It’s like Twitter, but there is no centralized service. There are multiple “instances” that you can join; the one I’m on is for Transformers fans. It’s a friendly, low key place, and is open to everyone… unless you’re a TERF or a Nazi or a racist douchebag. (That’s one of the other reasons I joined. I’m getting real damned tired of the Nazis and their shit on Twitter. It’s frigging ridiculous.) If you’re on Mastodon and wanna give me a toot or a boost or a follow, I’m You can join any instance–the biggest is–and follow anyone on any other instance. So if you don’t want to sign up for a Transformers themed instance, there are others that might interest you. Don’t like tooting through a browser? Want something for the home screen of you’re phone? There are apps on the Google Play store; I’m using Fedilab and it works beautifully. You’ll need to enter your instance to get things started, so make sure you remember that, but I’ve been posting away through my phone with ease. Twitter? Not on this phone. Not anymore.

I’ve been dialing down the Facebook usage; with Prime on another 30 day ban, there’s no real reason for me to even be on there. The one thing that keeps me there is Messenger but I might have a solution to that. Apparently, there’s a messaging service called Signal that has better privacy measures than Faceook’s Messenger. Tempting? Definitely and for very obvious reasons. However, I haven’t made the move to Signal just yet; I’d rather clear it with Prime since we’d both be using the service. But if it happens, I’ll let you know and whether or not it’s worth the switch.

Facebook itself can just stay as it is for right now. There’s no real deleting a Facebook account; at least, there isn’t currently. But the less I use it, the less money Zuck makes. There’s that, at least.

I’m off on Thursday. I’m thinking that on that day, I’m going to stay in bed–the rest will definitely help my head cold–and compose a toot or two while munching on a chili cheese burrito. I won’t be touching Twitter or Facebook; instead, I’ll stick with my browser and mostly click on GPX+ for the day. (I’m on a new Exploration; if I haven’t finished it by then, I’ll be close.) I’ll make a blog post, maybe check the news on Joe.My.God but that’ll be about it.

I need a rest. Thursday can’t come soon enough.

About Silverwynde

I'm a Transformers fan, Pokémon player, Brewers fan and all-out general nerd. I rescue abandoned Golett, collect as many Bumblebee decoys and figures as I can find and I've attended every BotCon--official and non--since 1999. I'm also happily married to a fellow Transfan named Prime and we were both owned by a very intelligent half-Siamese cat, who crossed the Rainbow Bridge on June 16, 2018. We still miss him. But we're now the acting staff of a Maine Coon kitty named Lulu, who pretty much rules the house. Not that we're complaining about that.
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2 Responses to Social Anxiety

  1. DeviceDude says:

    Good to know you are exploring alternatives to Facebook and Twitter. Hope things get better healthwise for both of you. 🙂


    Liked by 1 person

    • Silverwynde says:

      We’re getting there. Gotta love winter and cold season.

      But Facebook has become a source of stress. Dialing it down has helped. And Mastodon is fun. I love the instance I’m on; it’s been an absolute blast!


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